We have recently found out that our dear, sweet Owen died of SIDS.  I have decided to continue accepting donations, in his honor for SIDS research.  All donations will be sent to Boston Childrens Hospital in Owen's name.  
Owen's death has been extemely hard on me.  I just don't understand how God could take this beautiful boy from us.  I have questioned my faith.  I have been depressed.  I have finally gotten to the point that I don't burst into tears every time I see his picture.
I have stopped going on any kind of social media.  For those of you that have tried to contact me through Facebook, Instagram or Ravelry; I apologize.  I am trying.  Trying to get back on track, trying to get the newest patterns I have edited and posted.  I haven't been very successful, but I will continue to try.  

I have stopped taking monetary donations for the final expenses of my grandson Owen.  We have obtained the goal that I set. 
​I want to say thank you to everyone that shared the post and to those who made monetary donations.  Thank you all for your kind words and loving support.  
​I will be taking a step back from social media to grieve privately with my family.

On Wednesday, April 8, 2020 I was awoken by Ken on the phone saying that I needed to come to his house that my son needed me.  I though my son was having a mental breakdown and needed me to talk to him and help him through whatever it was he was going through.
When I got to the house there were emergency personnel on site, an ambulance, state police and the sherriff's patrol vehicles.  My son was sitting in a sherriff's SUV sobbing hysterically.  He was and still is very distraught.
The picture on the left is his Christmas picture.  He is a beautiful child, an angel now. 

I can't stop crying.  I am trying to hold it together to help my son, but I don't know how to help him, other than just being there and hugging him and holding his hand.  I keep reassuring him that I love him.
​I am trying to raise $2,000.00 to cover any expenses, the ambulance, the cremation, urn and burial plot.  I am so grateful to anyone that can help.  I don't know what else to do. 

What I didn't know is they were there for my son, he awoke to finding his little Owen, 4 and 1/2 months old dead in his bed.  My family is in crisis.  We have to try to hold it together for Owen's Mom and Dad.  They are so grief stricken that I am worried about there mental health.  I have done nothing but cry.  I am appealing to all of you for help.  I would like to try to get some donation's for them to help defray the cost of Owen's final expenses.  Can you help, will you help, even if it is just sharing this post.  I am making a donation button that is linked to my pay pal account.  This money will be used to pay for his cremation, urn and a final resting spot.
I am sorry to post such a tragic event but my family is in crisis and we need help.  I loved Owen to the moon and back and am forever gratefull that I was allowed to hold him and kiss him good by before the coroner took him from us.

I haven't posted here since the beginning of December 2019.  Things in my life have taken a turn; I no longer live in the house that was my home for the past six years.  I now live in a room in a friend's house with my cat, Mayumi, aka Yum Yum kitty.  Once it warms up here (I am in Maine) I will move my African Grey parrot, Peggy.  

What happened?  On January 1, 2020 I got into an "altercation" with my long time partner of 25 years.  He shoved me and I called 911.  I was just so sick and tired of all of the arguements, disrepect, name calling and emotional and verbal abuse.
He was arrested, a no contact order was put in place; and since his parent's own the home I was the one that had to leave.  I couldn't afford the house on my own and it was for my best emotional well-being to leave.  I usually don't post things of such a personal nature here but do want all of my reader's to know that I haven't fallen off the face of the earth.
I also want to let everyone know that the kind of "co-dependent" relationship that I was in isn't acceptable or healthy for either one of us.  I know just how hard it is to leave a relationship, how overwhelming it can be to try to survive on your own.  I am still overwhelmed, I am still unsure, but I am beginning to get my life back on track.  I am in counseling and am trying to get a case worker that can help me fill out applications for housing assistance.  He wants me to move back in, I can't do that until he gets the help he needs.  Honestly, I don't know if I even want to go back.  It is a very confusing time for me.  At the end of this post I will provide links and phone numbers for the Domestic Abuse Hotline.

I have been getting a few emails regarding the share buttons to the left of the pages.  They seem to cover parts of the pattern on tablets and mobile devices.  I have made the buttons smaller; hopefully this will solve the problem.  

Could you let me know in the comments on the pages you visit if I have solved the problem?  Thank you all so much for visiting me here.  I want to make your user experience with this site a pleasant one.  I don't want anyone to struggle when trying to use any of the pages on this site.  

Happy Holidays to all.

On November 21st, 2019 my newest little grandbaby was born.  His name is Owen Micheal and he is the cutest, sweetest tiny little human in my life.  Oh!, how our hearts have such a capacity for love.  The moment I heard about him I couldn't wait to meet him.  Here he is at about an hour old.  Mom and baby are both doing well and we all just couldn't be any happier with him.