I haven't posted here since the beginning of December 2019. Things in my life have taken a turn; I no longer live in the house that was my home for the past six years. I now live in a room in a friend's house with my cat, Mayumi, aka Yum Yum kitty. Once it warms up here (I am in Maine) I will move my African Grey parrot, Peggy.
What happened? On January 1, 2020 I got into an "altercation" with my long time partner of 25 years. He shoved me and I called 911. I was just so sick and tired of all of the arguements, disrepect, name calling and emotional and verbal abuse.
He was arrested, a no contact order was put in place; and since his parent's own the home I was the one that had to leave. I couldn't afford the house on my own and it was for my best emotional well-being to leave. I usually don't post things of such a personal nature here but do want all of my reader's to know that I haven't fallen off the face of the earth.
I also want to let everyone know that the kind of "co-dependent" relationship that I was in isn't acceptable or healthy for either one of us. I know just how hard it is to leave a relationship, how overwhelming it can be to try to survive on your own. I am still overwhelmed, I am still unsure, but I am beginning to get my life back on track. I am in counseling and am trying to get a case worker that can help me fill out applications for housing assistance. He wants me to move back in, I can't do that until he gets the help he needs. Honestly, I don't know if I even want to go back. It is a very confusing time for me. At the end of this post I will provide links and phone numbers for the Domestic Abuse Hotline.
My very dear friend let me move into a spare room that she has. I was left with all of the credit card debt and a large car payment. If she hadn't offered me this room I would be homeless right now.
I have "caught up" on all of my payments and am back on track, broke but my monthly bills are being paid. I struggle financially; but who doesn't?
The pandemic that has us all "social distancing" has put me (along with many, many other's) out of work. Since I only work part time I do not qualify for Unemployment Compensation. Have you had to file for lost wages through Unemployment because of the Corona/Covid 19 Virus? I pray that if you have, you get the benefits you deserve. I hope that none of you or your family members have contracted the virus and that everyone is healthy and happy.
It has been a difficult time and I haven't been able to do much designing. I have been knitting though. I have made a minimum of 8 scarves, all of them my "Scarf with No Name" pattern. I have done them in Red Heart Supersaver, Lion Brand Mandala and one with mohair and alpaca. I have found that knitting these simple diagonal garter stitch scarves is very theraputic for me. What do you make/do to calm yourself? Do you knit? Crochet? Read?
National Domestic Abuse hotline
Our advocates are available 24/7 at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) in more than 200 languages. All calls are free and confidential.
You can also chat with an advocate through this website. I do hope that none of you are in the same situation, please, if you are, reach out, you are not alone.